Finally, after 5 years of study in singapore, this is the first time i moved out and stay at the school's hostel. So many things need to bring and buy..
I think i have spent quite lots lately. Hope it is just for a short period of time. If it still goes on like this for the rest of the day, then i think i'm gonna broke soon..

The condition of the hostel is worse than i imagined. Well, perhaps the sleeping room is big enough but there is no dinning room. What behind our sleeping room's door is corridor. The toilet, pantry and laundry room is located at different places and levels, and it is shared with all the student from the same hall..

I would also like to thx a lot to my beloved friends for helping me carrying my stuff early in the morning all the way from my house to the hostel..I know she was sleepy because i could hear her yawning when receiving my morning call..hahaha
Sigh..i also felt bad that morning because it was probably my cause, more or less, that she lost the bus card..
Anyway thx a lot for the help Cin..I'm very grateful..

It is already 01:00 A.M, but i'm still wide awake..
Listening to music and chatting with friends at night is what i always do..
But soon, i know it will change as the new term is starting soon which mean busy and challenging life is waiting for me ahead which also means no more slacking time..
Therefore, i should really enjoy in this few days..:)
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Recently, i have bought a new phone after 5 years of using N-gage QD. I believe only few know N-gage QD since it is quite an old type phone..
Speaking of which, i'm still not really good at using the new phone, so many function are yet to be learnt..
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On the other hand, i just got my guitar too from my friend. Although the guitar's condition is not that well, but it is still playable.
I have not been playing guitar for quite a long time..
I'm so addicted to it..
Ooppss forgot to mention, i'm still at the stage of learning :D..
Hope that someday i can post a few guitar songs that i play on my own in my blog..

Recently, I have been reading few articles and i have come across this piece of wise wisdom which i think quite inspiring..Therefore, i would like to share, hoping that everyone will get inspired by this..
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French writer and Nobel Prize winner Anatole France once said, "To
accomplish great things, we must not only act, but also dream; not only
plan, but also believe."
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However, sometimes i'm also thinking will dreaming big always make your wishes come true? No, maybe not exactly, but I can pretty much guarantee you that you’ll get a lot closer than if you never dream at all or you squash thoughts of your dreams every time they surface..

Dreaming means u have desire, when you have desire then we will be motivated..Therefore, never be afraid to dream big..But, once again i question myself, how big is big?
Dream is something that can not be quantified..If it can be quantified, it's not a dream but an objective or goal. A dream has to be so big that you can't put a number or a date on it. That's what keeps it always in front of you, always in your future..

Thus, starting from today, we should start dreaming..Don't be shy to dream big..

It was not something horrifying..
It was something lovely instead..
I was dreaming confessing my love to a girl..
It was damn awkward dream i have ever had..
I still could feel the heart pounding even after i woke up from my dream..lol
I'm thinking, am i only that daring in dream?hahaha
I still remembered, the girl who i confessed in my dream was purposely asking me to repeat loudly what i told her in the public..then she walked away blushing without a response...
Anyway, it was just a dream..
Hope that in real life i won't get that kind of response..:D what a weird dream..

There is something that i would like to share here. I have read one of my friend's facebook wall's story today..It was a touching story which i would like to share:
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When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that every day for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife's divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside
the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.
My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push thru with the divorce.-- At least, in the eyes of our son--- I'm a loving husband....

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment that are conducive to happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.
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I hope you guys and gals enjoy this story..Feel free to share if you like :D

All of sudden, i wanted to tell the story of "the rich and the poor". Here it goes the story:
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Once upon a time, there was a rich man who owned a really big organization. He had everything he wanted except for his health. No matter how much money he spent to improve his health, he always ended up with unhealthy body.
On the other hand, there was once a poor man, no matter how hard he tried to work, he always ended up poor..He was always poor perhaps due to his carefree personality of never takes thing seriously, but he was blessed with healthy body..
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One day the rich and the poor met up and they both agreed to exchange their soul using certain method, so that they could lead the desire life that they wanted.
Finally, using the so called "certain method" they had successfully exchanged their soul. Now the rich become poor with a healthy body and the poor become rich who had everything except he had bad health condition..
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Time had passed, the rich who became poor started to succeed again in his career due to his good foundation and his hard work. And the poor who became rich now started to face financial crisis since he had no idea how to run a business and started to use up all his fortune to enjoy life..
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Once again, the rich become rich again but due to his over work his healthy body started to get weak and finally he had fallen ill again..
The poor who had spent all his fortune to enjoy life now become poor again but because of his carefree personality, he was getting healthier again..
In the end, nothing had changed because they're still holding the same attitude..
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The moral behind this story tell us that we should change our attitude first if we want to change our fate..

When i was on the bus on the way to my work place, a bunch of students with their teachers hopped on..To my surprise they were not normal students, but a group of students with intellectual disability..I could see that the teacher were busy organizing their student to settle down, but it only took few seconds to settle them down and they were all very obedient..
Unlike other children at their age, they were not jumping here and there nor making loud noise. They just sat quietly on their seat and look out of the bus window and smile with joy..it was the first time i saw such an innocent and happy expression on the bus because what i usually saw was hurry, serious and tense expression from most of the commuters..
They might be slow-witted, but they are definitely the most carefree and happiest creature in this world. God is really fair when creating human. When you lost something, you gain something.
Suddenly, i began to feel perhaps we should relax more like them so that we can really understand what does it mean by enjoying..if we have "everything-is-not-for-granted" attitude, then perhaps we would know how to enjoy life more..we should feel granted that we still can see the world, breathe the air, touch and feel the surrounding..

This is an another song from his latest album that i like..
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蝴蝶眨几次眼睛
Hu die zha ji chi yan jing
How many times does a butterfly blink
才学会飞行
Cai xue hui fei xing
Before it learns to fly?
夜空洒满了星星
Ye kong sai man le xing xing
The sky is sprinkled over with countless stars
但几颗会落地
Dan ji ke hui luo di
But how many there will remain?

我飞行 当你坠落之际
Wo fei xing Dang ni zui luo zhi ji
Even as I fly, you fall
很靠近 还听见呼吸
Hen kao jing Hai ting jian hu xi
So close I can hear you breathe
对不起 我却没捉紧你
Dui bu qi Wo que mei zhuo jin ni
So sorry I didn't keep hold of you

你不知道我为什么离开你
Ni bu zhi dao wo wei shen me li kai ni
You don't know why I had to leave you
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
Wo jian chi bu neng shuo fang ren ni ku qi
How could I ignore your every cry
你的泪滴想倾盆大雨 碎落满地
Ni de lei di xiang qing pen da yu Sui luo man di
All the while the downpour of your tears shattering the ground
在心里清晰
Zai xin li qing xi
So clearly pierced my heart
你不知道我为什么狠下心
Ni bu zhi dao wo wei shen me hen xia xin
You don't know why I had to keep away
盘旋在你看不见的高空里
Pan xuan zai ni kan bu jian de gao kong li
Circling in the sky above, just out of sight
多的是 你不知道的事
Duo de shi Ni bu zi dao de shi
So many are the things you never knew

蝴蝶眨几次眼睛
Hu die zha ji chi yan jing
How many times does a butterfly blink
才学会飞行
Cai xue hui fei xing
Before it learns to fly?
夜空洒满了星星
Ye kong sai man le xing xing
The sky is sprinkled over with countless stars
但几颗会落地
Dan ji ke hui luo di
But how many there will remain?

我飞行 当你坠落之际
Wo fei xing Dang ni zui luo zhi ji
Even as I fly, you fall
很靠近 还听见呼吸
Hen kao jing Hai ting jian hu xi
So close I can hear you breathe
对不起 我却没捉紧你
Dui bu qi Wo que mei zhuo jin ni
So sorry I didn't keep hold of you

你不知道我为什么离开你
Ni bu zhi dao wo wei shen me li kai ni
You don't know why I had to leave you
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
Wo jian chi bu neng shuo fang ren ni ku qi
How could I ignore your every cry
你的泪滴想倾盆大雨 碎落满地
Ni de lei di xiang qing pen da yu Sui luo man di
All the while the downpour of your tears shattering the ground
在心里清晰
Zai xin li qing xi
So clearly pierced my heart
你不知道我为什么狠下心
Ni bu zhi dao wo wei shen me hen xia xin
You don't know why I had to keep away
盘旋在你看不见的高空里
Pan xuan zai ni kan bu jian de gao kong li
Circling in the sky above, just out of sight
多的是 你不知道的事
Duo de shi Ni bu zi dao de shi
So many are the things you never knew

我飞行 当你坠落之际
Wo fei xing Dang ni zui luo zhi ji
Even as I fly, you fall
噢噢~
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你不知道我为什么离开你
Ni bu zhi dao wo wei shen me li kai ni
You don't know why I had to leave you
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
Wo jian chi bu neng shuo fang ren ni ku qi
How could I ignore your every cry
你的泪滴想倾盆大雨 碎落满地
Ni de lei di xiang qing pen da yu Sui luo man di
All the while the downpour of your tears shattering the ground
在心里清晰
Zai xin li qing xi
So clearly pierced my heart
你不知道我为什么狠下心
Ni bu zhi dao wo wei shen me hen xia xin
You don't know why I had to keep away
盘旋在你看不见的高空里
Pan xuan zai ni kan bu jian de gao kong li
Circling in the sky above, just out of sight
多的是 你不知道的事
Duo de shi Ni bu zi dao de shi
So many are the things you never

New songs added which i, personally, think quite good. The first time listening to this song and i already liked it, thank to chandra for sharing this song with me..
Hope everyone will like this song..
Here is the lyric with hanyu pinyin:
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小时候 你想要什麽
Xiao shi hou ni xiang yao shen me
When you are young, what did you want?
我要一臺大大蓝色的飞机
Wo yao yi tai da da lan se de fei ji
I wanted a really big blue airplane
带我环遊世界
Dai wo huan you shi jie
to take me around the world
到地球每一个角落
Dao di qiu mei yi ge jiao luo
to every corner of the globe
在蓝天白云中穿梭
Zai lan tian bai yun zhong chuan suo
traveling back and forth among the white cloud in the blue sky

而长大以後 我想要什麽
Er zhang da yi hou wo xiang yao shen me
And after i grew up, what did i want?
我要一臺小小红色答录机
Wo yao yi tai xiao xiao hong se da lu ji
I wanted a small red answering machine
和你一起录下
He ni yi qi lu xia
so i could record with you
喂 我们现在不在家
Wei wo men xian zai bu zai jia
"Hi!, We're not home at the moment.."
蓝色变成红色因 为你
Lan se bian cheng hong se yin wei ni
Blue became red because of you

柴米油盐酱醋茶
Cai mi you yan jiang chu cha
Firewood, rice, oil, salt, soy sauce, vinegar tea
一点一滴都是幸福在发芽
Yi dian yi di dou shi xing fu zai fa ya
Each and every drop is a bud of happiness growing
月儿弯弯爱的傻
Yue er wan wan ai de sha
A crescent moon, a foolish love
有了你什麽都 不差
You le ni shen me dou bu cha
i already have everything when i have you

小时候 你想要什麽
Xiao shi hou ni xiang yao shen me
When you are young, what did you want?
我要一臺大大蓝色的飞机
Wo yao yi tai da da lan se de fei ji
I wanted a really big blue airplane
带我环遊世界
Dai wo huan you shi jie
to take me around the world
到地球每一个角落
Dao di qiu mei yi ge jiao luo
to every corner of the globe
在蓝天白云中穿梭
Zai lan tian bai yun zhong chuan suo
traveling back and forth among the white cloud in the blue sky

哦长大以後 我想要什麽
O zhang da yi hou wo xiang yao shen me
oh, after i grew up, what did i want?
我要一臺小小红色答录机
Wo yao yi tai xiao xiao hong se da lu ji
I wanted a small red answering machine
和你一起录下
He ni yi qi lu xia
so i could record with you
喂 我们现在不在家
Wei wo men xian zai bu zai jia
"Hi!, We're not home at the moment.."
蓝色变成红色因 为你
Lan se bian cheng hong se yin wei ni
Blue became red because of you

柴米油盐酱醋茶
Cai mi you yan jiang chu cha
Firewood, rice, oil, salt, soy sauce, vinegar tea
一点一滴都是幸福在发芽
Yi dian yi di dou shi xing fu zai fa ya
Each and every drop is a bud of happiness growing
月儿弯弯爱的傻
Yue er wan wan ai de sha
A crescent moon, a foolish love
有了你什麽都 不差
You le ni shen me dou bu cha
i already have everything when i have you

给你快乐无论白天黑夜
Gei ni kuai le wu lun bai tian hei ye
Making you happy whether it's day or night
握紧双手就算刮风下雨
Wo jing shuang shou jiu suan gua feng xia yu
Grasping both your hands even in the wind and rain
我就是要你
Wo jiu shi yao ni
I only want you
要你待在我身边
Yao ni dai zai wo shen bian
Want you to stay by my side
保护你直到永远
Bao hu ni zhi dao yong yuan
Protecting you untill the end of the time

柴米油盐酱醋茶
Cai mi you yan jiang chu cha
Firewood, rice, oil, salt, soy sauce, vinegar tea
一点一滴都是幸福在发芽
Yi dian yi di dou shi xing fu zai fa ya
Each and every drop is a bud of happiness growing
月儿弯弯爱的傻
Yue er wan wan ai de sha
A crescent moon, a foolish love
有了你什麽都 不差
You le ni shen me dou bu cha
i already have everything when i have you

月儿弯弯爱的傻
Yue er wan wan ai de sha
A crescent moon, a foolish love
没有一个理由
Mei you yi ge li you
there's no reason
活的那麽复杂
Huo de na me fu za
to live a complicated life
有了你什麽都 不差
You le ni shen me dou bu cha
i already have everything when i have you

How does rusting feel like?I think it is more or less like my current self..
Have not been doing anything useful for this past few months besides relaxing..
I think it is about time to do something useful instead of wasting time..
The school is starting in another 3 more weeks yet i haven't prepared anything..
I think i am too relaxing lately..
I'm starting to forget how the school life feels like..Worried that i couldn't cope with the university's life..
I know it is gonna be a tough road, but i must have faith in myself. I have already made it this far, so i don't have the reason to back off. This time i'll definitely be able to survive as well. Besides i'm not alone, i still have my buddy with me. We are aiming for second upper class honor but if possible we also wanted the first class honor..Anyway, i think i just do my very best. I'm already late compare to my other friends who already graduated from university. Hence, i think i should do well..
I need to be very very focus this time because lots of people said university is totally in different level than poly..><
I'M A BIT SCARED to be honest...

Recently, i just realized that i probably have two personality..
It changes drastically..
I ,myself, don't really like my second personality because it may offend other people..
When i'm in my second personality, i become very quiet, serious, ignorance and cold..i talk less and prefer straight to the point..
Usually i become like this when i am tired or when i am serious doing things..
So please, bear with and forgive me if i become this way..
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I believe people do have more than one personality..
If you think that i have more than these personality, then please feel free to comment..
Good nite..

Music affect people's mood..
What happened to me?
Seems like i'm missing something..
I couldnl't tell what that is...
I think i should listen to more cheerful song..
Damn it...
Listening to emo song while blogging will make the content of my blog look emo..
I'm enjoying listening to music while lying on my bed..
After a day work..lying down on bed listening to music is such an enjoyable thing to do..
Seems like i found something that i have lost..but it doesn't seem exactly the same..i really couldn't pinpoint what is happening..
This kind of feeling really makes me sick..
I think i should just leave it to nature; let things take their own course
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I'm confused now..i don't even know what i'm blogging...
Judging from the way i'm writing now, i think you should already aware..
There are lots of thing inside my head..Sorry if you get confused too when reading this post..
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Perhaps this is the side effect of starving and sleepless...
i think i should turn in soon before my mind run wild..hahaha

Working again today, i mean later on this morning..
I have been spending quite lots lately..i think it is about time to earn back what i have been spending..Work hard, play hard, spend hard then it is called life...:)
Good nite all...

This movie suck...
Be honest, it is not worth watching even in 3D..
The story line is boring, the action/fighting scene is lame, and the 3D effect is nothing..
Quite dissapointed actually..
Besides, i could not concentrate during the show because she, who sat beside me, could not keep still while wacthing..she kept imitating the charater move in the movie by wavering her hands like praticing Tai chi..I didn't know what she was doing ..
To me, it looked like she was provoking me, trying to tell me that why i brought her to watch this lame movie..hahaha
I was the victim as well...agrhhhhh....

It was still pretty dark because it was only 5:30 a.m. I was on my way to batam from my hometown by boat..
It was damn cold that morning..
As you can see, the moon was pretty bright...If you could see it with your own eyes, it would be much more beautiful...


Now, it was around 6:00 am..as you can see the sky was starting to turn bright...


15 minutes had passed and it was already 6:15 a.m now..


The morning sky is indeed beautiful..Although i couldn't see the sunrise directly as it was blocked by the hills, but the reddish sky was pretty...
Morning sea breeze is the best..

Ehm....i know i have not been updating my blog for some time but it doesn't mean i abandon my blog...
I was very very busy lately although i don't know what exactly i was busy for..:D
Perhaps most of the time i spent for reading manga...
I am a big fan of Naruto, One piece, and Bleach manga..
Recently i started to read a new manga, History Strongest Disciple Kenichi..
The manga was pretty awsome..
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Actually, there are plenty of things happened since my last post..it is just that i don't feel like updating..Therefore, i think i will just post a few posts at once..hehehe