When i arrived at hospital, my mum was already there..
She looked pale, but still awake and able to have a short chat with me..
Next day, early in the morning, she went through surgery while i was on my way to hospital..
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When i reached there, all i could see was everyone's sad face..
"what's going on" i wondered..
They said my mum suffered from lots of blood loss and the surgery didn't go smoothly as expected..
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I was stunned after hearing the news..
I didn't know how to respond..
But one thing for sure was i knew i must kept myself calm..
I could see that my dad and my two younger brothers were very worried and depressed..
It was the first time i saw my dad shed a tear..
It was the first time we had faced this kind of situation..
As an eldest son and brother, i need to keep my calm..
I need to comfort them although deep in my heart was crying..
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There was so many times i almost cry out when comforting them..
but i know, i can not, especially to my dad..
So i didn't even shed a single tear that day..
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When my mum out of the operation room, i could see that she was lying there helplessly..
My heart shattered into pieces..
When sitting beside her, i could hear her weak breath..
When touching her hands, it feel so rough..It is a pair of hands that she used to support the family..
When touching her hair, it look so white..She has aged so much..
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I told mum, no need to worry..everthing will be fine..
My heart was crying when i saw mum like that..But i do not want her to see that as i do not want her to worry..
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What an unforgetable experience..
I'm back again after some unpleasant time that i have gone through..
Seems like my last post have worried few friends of mine..
Sorry to all of my friends for making u guys and gals worried and thank a lot for all the prayer that you all prayed..seems like god had heard your prayer..
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Today, i just went to the hospital with my mum for her body check-up..
The doctor told me that she was doing well, nothing serious about my mum condition..
He asked me why should my mum went through operation in Batam?How should i respond to his question?I just wanted to tell him that the Batam's doctor really sucked..
I cursed them for recklessly performed surgery on my mum..
I cursed them even more if the surgery was purposely done just to make money out of my mum..
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I, eversince, lost faith in Batam's doctor..
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However, eventhough i said nothing serious had happend to my mum, but it doesn't mean it is not serious..We still need to come back here for check up next month..If the condition doesn't improve, in worse case scenario my mum still need to undergo surgery..
Hope that my mum doesn't need to take that path..
I'm enough with surgery already..
No more cut here and there..
No more mum lying on the patient bed helplessly again..
I can't bear to see that again..
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My little sister is doing well as well..
She had been diagnosed with dengue fever back then..But seems like everything is turning well..All the bad thing has already passed..
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God is still on my side..:)
All of sudden, i feel so tired..
Why so many thing happend in such a short time..
One after another or more precisely one and another..
One haven't gone yet, the other already appear..
At first was my mum and now my little sister..
Come on, give me a breath..
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I feel so stress now seeing both my mum and little sister like this..
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Last night, i got SMSes from my little brother saying that our mother was on her way to hospital. That time, i was still in my working place. I was like, what's going on?
I have a surge of feeling of rushing back home..
But luckily nothing happend..
Thanks to my brother for keep updating me about our mum condition..
My mum has suffered from high blood pressure.
I believe she overdid her works or forgot to take her medicine..
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My parents are already in their late 50's and yet still have to work so hard to support the family..
I feel very bad all of sudden..
I'm not on their side most of the time,
Haven't earned a living to support family yet,
And i still have another 4 years to go before i really start to work..
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what should i do?
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I'm thinking of going back home this afternoon..
I'm still waiting for the further updates from my brother..
Hope that nothing serious happend to mum..
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This was the movie that i watched last night..
This movie managed to make me shed a tear..
It is quite a good movie in my opinion because it show the loyalty that perhaps human cannot achieve..
Can you wait for someone that has already gone for nine years? Maybe yes, maybe no..
Most people can only wait for at the most three to four years..
But this dog, Hachi, could wait for nine years or rather i should say its whole life..incredible right? That is why the dog become a legend in Shibuya Railroad Station..
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Perhaps, the reason why human's loyalty can not last so long is because when our important one's gone, we tend to make a new bond..
Not to forget that we also have family and lots of friends that can support us. Hence, we tend to get heal quickly..
However,for a dog like hachi. Perhaps, its only friend is his master. Therefore, it can only wait for its master and no one else..
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Last time i also got watched one movie title "10 promises to my dog" which i think quite similar to Hachiko..
For those who interested especially those animals' lover, you could try this movie..^^
I'm still wide awake now..
Couldn't sleep..
What should i do?
I think i just keep my eyes shut..
Hopefully i could just fall asleep like that..
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Anyone got any better ideas?
Mind to share with me?
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By the way, time past so fast..
Perhaps, this is the reason why i don't like sleeping..
When i shut my eyes and open it, it is already the next day..
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Without realizing it, i have already been in singapore for more than 4 years..
Some of my friends are still studying just like me,
some are getting married,
some are married,
some even have child already,
some are no longer in this world,
but most of them are working,
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During this 4 years a lot of thing happend..
We are no longer ourselves anymore like last time..
We have changed even though sometimes we don't even realize it ourselves..Anyone agree with me?
I believe most of us should already knew what we really wanted to achieve in our life now..
Perhaps, this is what we called life..
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We should always move forwards no matter how many obstacles that we have faced..
Although it is easier to said than done but i believe as long as we have the KEY(still remember my KEY?), we definitely could pull through.
SO, what is the thing that you are going to achieve in your life?
Mind to share with me?
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So dissapointed..why all the song's text was written in chinese with no Hanyu Pinyin..Zzz
The choice of english songs were also limited and some didn't even have text..
The indonesia songs also sucked..One singer only have one song..
What kind of KTV is this??
Well, i should not complain much. It was free after all..haha
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However that was not the most irritating part..
My friend's friend's friends came join us.
We only selected few songs since we considered others might want to sing as well..
However, these new bunch of people when it comes to their turn, they selected the whole album song, S.H.E, F.I.R, JJ and etc...
I was like -.-"
The way they sang was also damn weird..they never switched off the audio-vocal, i means they sang along with the singer voice..Where was the fun part if we couldn't hear your voice..come on la you people..
Perhaps this is their culture..My friends and i were like "ass hole" hahaha
We, Arifin, Rendy, Darwin and i, end up playing pool..haha
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Someone have found my blog..
Wah...damn paishe
More and more people are getting to know my blog now..
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First of all, Congratulation to those who found my blog --> Cindy
How did you manage to get my blog? >.<
Ehm...this is a new blog that i just created few days ago and not much people know and yet you found me already...>.<
luckily i never badmouthed you..:P hahaha
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I think i enabled the comment already..You guys and gals may try to comment to see if it is work..
I was like walking vampire today...
so tired and so sleepy..couldn't sleep well last night and the next day because we kept disturbing one another..:P
I'm so full now..Thanks a lot to Fin and Ren for the treat..The steamboat was great..:P
Ok, let's call it a day..
I'm going to sleep to my heart content tonight..hehe
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Bye, i'm turning in soon..
Zzz.zZz..zZ
Last night, despite being so tired after a long day walk, i managed to have a short chat with few friends of mine.
Haha glad that they are doing well..
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Glad to know she is getting well too now. Although it was just a few minute of chatting, but i could sense that she was no longer emo..
Like what you said, those who live in the past is a loser. But those who think back of the past is not. Travel back in time is fine, just make sure we didn't trap ourselves back there.
i'm looking foward to seeing a cheerful girl like back then. :)
Hope that you don't get too upset anymore over the past matter. let bygones be bygones..
cheers...Jia you..
After a long walk a day with my cousin and his girlfriend yesterday, we finally went home. What a tiring day. Now i know tour guide is not an easy job. Zzzz
I don't want to be a tour guide again today..
My last move is SIAM (run away in hokkien) hahaha
I make use of arifin and rendy as an excuses to be absent on today free tour guide duty..wahaha
So at the last minute last night , i went out to my friend's place... :D
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Over here i got wijaya, arifin and rendy with me..
Last night we, except for rendy, went out for supper.
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Damn it, it was heavy rain last night..we had been trapped at the kopitiam..Zzz
What else can be done by the three of us in this heavy rain at the kopitiam..
TALKING CRAP is our speciality..:D ahahaha
We end up reaching home around 3 o'clock.
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It was a great chat with you. I have a strange feeling when chatting with you as if we have known each other for quite a long time.
I was like chatting with an old friend of mine. :)
It feel so warm..
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Have you guys and gals ever experienced it before?
Perhaps, this is what we called chat mate.. :)
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Ok let's call it a day.
I should turn in soon as well..
Good nite everyone...
Time passes so fast. In a blink of an eye, it is already 5 year since i graduated from my High school, SMA Yos Sudarso.
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So many memories left over there. I was chatting with Jurina just now and all of sudden she remind me of our high school life. Where should i start first?
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ok perhaps, i should start with something i'm most familiar with.
BLITZ---my basket ball team name..
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if i'm not mistaken, in our basket ball team history, we never win even a single match. What a failure..
Since i did mention about jurina, she used to be our team's money collector (lol am i using the correct term? whatever)
in our team, we got 2 money collector, jurina and cindy.
The reason why we chosed girls as money collector was because we didn't trust our guys..lol haha
these two girls also got play basket ball with us.
i still remembered one funny incident. One day, there was 5 on 5 match and jurina were one of the basket ball players in her team. When she got the ball, she charged fiercely to her field without thinking(not her opponent field) and shot to her field's goal and GOAL. I was like, NICE one..hahaha
that was so funny, all the spectators were stunned.
sorry jurina don't bear a grudge against me, i just couldn't help myself :P
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After a few year struglling maintaining the team, the team finally dispersed and we formed another new team called LG.
LG was not a basket ball team. It was a team that we formed at the last minute before our high school graduation to remember our friendship.
What a shocking news,
"A 45-YEAR-OLD man died of a heart attack after being bombarded with 120 SMSes from a debt collection company over RM7,000 (S$3022) in credit card debts"
First time reading this kind of news..haha
Just keep spamming the sms..lol
flooding their inbox..
and they end up getting the corpse..zzzz
Breaking news, "SMS DO KILL PEOPLE"
This was the movie that i watched with my dad and younger brother three days ago, Ice kacang Puppy love.
Actually my father didn't want to watch this movie because there is no action scene in it. My father always prefer action movie or horror movie but never love or romantic movie.
However, the only action movie left were Ip man 2, iron man 2 and the bounty hunter. The rest was romance such as the back up plan.
Come on, my father don't understand english. So we only left with Ip man 2 and ice kacang puppy love.
My brother told me, we can watch Ip man 2 in Batam but not ice kacang puppy love. So, we chose ICE KACANG eventually!hahaha
i feel very bad for my dad..haha but i'm sure he will like the show.
guess what? He lOVE the movie because it bring back lots of memory since it is similar to my kampoeng life..haha and it is very funny, touching and so real..
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One hour before the show start, we walked around the ILUMA mall. We bought one bag of soft sweet to the cinema and we finished it just before the show start. haha
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These few days, i have been reading one of my buddy blog..
So many thing had happend to her.
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I could feel her sadness and helplessness, but what could i do. I'm not good at comforting people. All i can do is to chat and bully her or to let her bully me like back then, hoping that it could ease her pain.
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She changed a lot, personality and physical. She used to be so warm-hearted but now become a bit cold. She used to be so cheerful but now i could sense that there is something amiss about her. I couldn't pinpoint what is that. In a words, people do change a lot as time passes.
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People told me she was getting very thin when she broke up with her boyfriend. But when i asked her, she told me that she was fine and she was getting fat again. I used to tease her because she was quite plump back then. However, when i met her, I was heartbroken. Was she kidding me saying that she was getting fat? she was thin. i couldn't imagine what she looked like when people said she was thin.
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She is quite special to me because i seldom have female buddy.
I always wanted to protect her like a big brother who always wanted to protect his younger sister. i know you might find that i'm a bit silly, but i just follow my instinct.
I hope that she can walk out of her past shadow soon. I believe time will heal everything.
cheer up and jia you...
I believe everyone has their story to tell. So do i.
My story might not be as exciting as your story but it is still a story.
Here i go.
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First of all, My full name is Herman Tino. And i do believe every name that was given by their parent do have a meaning so i do ask my parents.
I asked my father, "Pa what is the meaning of my name?"
My father told me, "actually i also don't know what is the meaning of your name?"
I replied, "how come?then why u gave me this name?"
My father replied, "i got your name from one of my worker. He said Herman Tino is a good name because it is a name of one famous singer from malaysia."
I replied in amazed, "so, you just took his suggestion."
With a smile on his face, my father replied, " YA "
I was like, OMG...so this is how my name come from..zzz
Because of this name, i become quite famous during my study in singapore..i still remember one incident when i went to singapore imigration to surrender my student pass. I was supposed to collect my document on that day, but i came back on the next day instead. When collecting my document, the officer said she was wondering where Herman Tino have gone to. She thought i was so busy with my concert. lol..
SEE!!they made fun of my name!
So...what is the meaning of your name?Have you ever tried to find out?
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Second of all, I'm originally from Moro island or more precisely from moro Subdistrict. As you know indonesia is so big, so most of the place is divided into Province, District and Subdistrict (confused?don worry because i'm not sure either :P)
Since i was a kid, i often moved from 1 island to another island.
When i was primary 4, i moved to my grandma place (another island) to continue my study since my previous school closed down. Afterwards, i moved to Batam to further my secondary and high school and now Singapore. Quite an adventurous experience, wasn't it?
Some of you may wondering whether i miss my family. Of course i do. Can you imagine a primary 4 student staying apart from their parents?
But now, no more this kind of feeling. I get used to it already.
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last time after graduating from my high school, i have dilemma whether to further my study overseas or not. I had received a lot of comment from my relative regarding my study. They felt that it was not worth trying because my high school grade was not really desireable. Furthermore, financial condition of my parent may not really support me. there were lots of risk involved
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I would really like to thank my parents to have their faith in me. Hence, i promised myself to study as hard as i could (altough i did slacked sometimes :P).
when i think back, i indeed have gone through a lot of steps to reach where i'm standing now. Life never go easy on us, preseverance is the key to survive (originally quoted from Hema :P)
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Another new problem keep dwelling on me now..can i do well in university?what if i cannot?there is so many thing i worried about..all i can do now is to believe in myself..if you want people to believe in you, you need to believe in yourself first!!>.< it is easier to say than done..
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ok, that's all for today..I will update the post again...
Since in my last post i did mention about my graduation ceremony. Here, i would like to share with you few photos of my graduation day.
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From left to right, my younger brother (pandi), me, and my DAD(do we look alike?)
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By the way these two fellows here are my INDON friend in RP.
From left to right,Rendy(the muscle man), me (the handsome man :)), Arifin (the Fat man) wahaha...
both of them graduated 1 year earlier than me...Shit, it was all because i never study well last time during my high school. Hence, i ended up falling behind them for 1 year.
I had never walk so long before. I think this was the first time i walked more than 6 hours continuosly everyday for the last three days.
However, it was a fun journey..I accompanied my father as he had never been in singapore for more than 30 years. Unbelievable, isn't it?
He told me the last time he went to singapore was when he worked as a sailor. I didn't know that till this last few days. He never mentioned about that before.
Speaking of which, do you know why my father come here?
Is it because of merely a holiday?
It is all because of my graduation ceremony. I would like to make him proud as he didn't make the wrong choice last time sending me here to study.
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.all of sudden, there are so many stories that appear in my head that i would like to share. >.<
i'm sorry if my blog look messy because i just dumped anything that i could think of.
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Lake of Dream
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On the way to Casino...
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Universal studios..we didn't go inside to play the game.
Damn expensive..$66/adult
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inside the Tiger tower, viewing Sentosa scenery..
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there are so many photo that we took. These are only few that have been selected..I have all these photo in my Facebook.
