When i arrived at hospital, my mum was already there..
She looked pale, but still awake and able to have a short chat with me..
Next day, early in the morning, she went through surgery while i was on my way to hospital..
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When i reached there, all i could see was everyone's sad face..
"what's going on" i wondered..
They said my mum suffered from lots of blood loss and the surgery didn't go smoothly as expected..
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I was stunned after hearing the news..
I didn't know how to respond..
But one thing for sure was i knew i must kept myself calm..
I could see that my dad and my two younger brothers were very worried and depressed..
It was the first time i saw my dad shed a tear..
It was the first time we had faced this kind of situation..
As an eldest son and brother, i need to keep my calm..
I need to comfort them although deep in my heart was crying..
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There was so many times i almost cry out when comforting them..
but i know, i can not, especially to my dad..
So i didn't even shed a single tear that day..
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When my mum out of the operation room, i could see that she was lying there helplessly..
My heart shattered into pieces..
When sitting beside her, i could hear her weak breath..
When touching her hands, it feel so rough..It is a pair of hands that she used to support the family..
When touching her hair, it look so white..She has aged so much..
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I told mum, no need to worry..everthing will be fine..
My heart was crying when i saw mum like that..But i do not want her to see that as i do not want her to worry..
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What an unforgetable experience..