Hi...long time never update my blog, feel kinda weird after hibernating for awhile :)
Well, i was busy with my exam lately. Hence, i did not really have much time to update my blog. Hope that i could at least pass my exam. The university standard is way too different compare to polytechnic.

I'm happy now because i'm going back to Batam tommorow hehe :)
Gonna to have fun to my heart's content :)

Well, recently i have come across one short movie video when listening to Hong jun yang song title Nan dao. I came across his another song named Guardian Angel. Well, i kinda like the MV. To my surprise, it is actually a short video that available in youtube. If i'm not mistaken it only have 11 episodes and each episode only last for 15 minutes long :)

Here is the video MV..Enjoy!!



WHO want me to be her Guardian Angel..:P although i might lose my way whenever you are calling me :P

I'm supposed to finish my assignment as soon as possible in this weekend, deadline is drawing near, this Wednesday will be the judgement day. Still need to do the report documentation and etc. Moreover, the exam is drawing near yet haven't prepared. Now i got big headache. But but i can't resist myself when i saw the guitar that lies besides me. I end up slacking quite some time..haha but it was fun..:D
playing and singing song although it was horribly done hahaha :P
Don't blame me when you have a nightmare after listening to this :P

Wei Ni Xie Shi (为你写诗) by Wu Ke Qun



Huai Ren (坏人) by Fang Jiong Bin
(one of my favorite singer from Malaysia. But, my roomate said he sounds sissy. -.-" come on, what's wrong with your ears, or my ears O.o..haha)



Only Love by Trademark

It was a tiring weekend indeed. I went to the hospital with my mum last Saturday to do body check-up. I'm so happy as she is getting better and better since the last incident. When the doctor told me, "your mum do not need to come back anymore!". This statement alone have already made me over the moon :)

Afterwards I hung out with my friend to look for her friend's birthday's present. We chatted quite lots during the dinner and I learnt quite lots of interesting thing from her :)

The next day I went out again with my cousin from Indonesia, accompany them to look for Chinese textbook..
It was damn tiring. The whole weekend seems so tiring. ><
To be honest, don't feel like study at all..

Now, the most irritating part come in, my beard papa...T.T i lost it after my friend bought it for me.
sad sad sad...
i really wanted to eat it so badly, i don't even willing to share with others..
i just wanted to eat them all by myself..><
usually i will be kind enough to share but i dont know why this time really don't feel like sharing ahhaha..and as a result i lost it ><..maybe this is what we called karma...LOL..
i don't even have a single bite of it..
damn irritated that day..
to be honest, i was damn annoyed that time..keep blaming myself why am i so sotong..
it was late already that night and we couldn't find that restaurant anymore..
I was damn tired and got bit headache too..
when reached home, before i could finish my homework, the headache was getting worse. Threw all the work aside and bump into my bed and SLEEPPPP...

Manage to go back to batam for awhile to relax :) haha sing, eat, chat and pool..so much fun there..
It was like a dream to me..
Everything happened so fast..
Before I could really digest it, I have been thrown back to the reality..

Another one more month exam is coming yet I haven't prepared anything. So busy with my assignment n school work..so many thing need to be done yet only have little time..I know I shouldn't complain much. But but I just feel like...zzz don't know how to describe it..

Well, I'm in the lecture room right now waiting for the lecture to come..faster come, so I can faster go home rest. Ain't feeling so well lately, so afraid to get ill at this time..
Ok, so boring here...bye..

It is so so so true.. ><
Sometimes i do think that being a jerk is probably much better than being a nice one.
How many, especially girls in nowadays, out there would actually appreciate it?
Do girls always chase over something that popular? because they found it more attractive?
Anyway, glad to know the video do not have a sad ending, but in real life it doesn't happen very often. Most of the time girl will choose the bad one over the nice one i think.
Well, so what is the role of a nice one? Spare-part? Someone who you can turn to when there is no one else you can turn to?
Well, although they know that, they won't complain because nice = fool..Yeah they are fool to the core because they like to get hurt again and again..
Have a strong feeling toward this video, perhaps i like FOOL people :)

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PART 2


PART 3

:D haha bunch of creative people..Should see which pose you are belong to when taking photo..:D
hahaha..They speak a very fluent english anyway. So envious :P

I think i got fever lately which probably explain why i felt so down. Really don't feel like talking at all. I think it had been few days already. Initially just felt a bit cold, thought that nothing serious so didn't care much. Just took measurement of my body temperature now and realised it reached 38++ celcius already. Gosh, just realised it now =.=
no wonder feel this bad =.=
i need water water water >.<
i hate drinking water seriously..
it is tasteless...
Arghh...just realised i ate ice cream n KFC, will it worsen my condition?
Zzzzz..zz..zzz..
Sigh...
sigh...
sigh...
Now i'm alone in the room without my roommate..I think this is better coz i don't want him to get affected..
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Feel like no one will know when i'm dying...:(
It really remind me when i was at my auntie house when i have my fever reach 39 celcius at midnight and i didn't have medicine with me..it was the worse experience i have ever had..never wake them up because i feel bad and end up i drank up a big kettle of water in a few hours and get the ice to cool myself down...I think i fell asleep at 4 a.m. at that time...
the next day my auntie asked me where had the water gone...lol...zzz
-.-...
well...i think i need to rest first...

Argh...
sprained wrist..
swelled toe..
bruised leg..
painful back...
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feel like doing nothing...
Zzzzz but cannot sleep..
got tons of thing to do...
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Well, overall, this movie is not bad after all..
But if you are not a family kind of person, then i suggested don't watch this movie better because although it is about disaster movie but the main focus is still about family..
The flow might a bit fast because it told a story about a family for 32 years. Hence, it didn't have much details on every single scene..
As for the story, basically it told an incident that struck TangShan, China, an earthquake that devoured 240k or more of human lives..
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Overview of the story:
A 7-year-old girl who get buried under the debris after the earthquake, overheard her mother decision to save her twin brother, who get buried under the same debris, instead of her because her mum have to come to difficult decision to choose to save either one of them or to lose both of them..
1 second more hesitation, they both will get crush to death by the debris. It is the most painful decision the mother had made in her life. As for the 7-year-old girl that overhead the conversation, can only quietly cry and say "ma..ma.."

As her mother thought her daughter was dead, she rush her son to the hospital leaving the girl body among the dead people..Miraculously, the girl woke up, but she had no intention at all to look for her mum..She walk aimlessly among the dead body till someone approach her asking," where is your family, your dad, your mum?"
The girl can only give an innocent sad face while looking at the guy, "don't be afraid, uncle will bring you home" responded the guy..
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Well, so the rest is about family scene, about how the girl face her childhood traumatised experience..
To be honest, i don't really like the character of the small girl when she grow up..so insensible, only know how to make parents worried..in a word, to me i think she is selfish..I like the character of her mother, although stubborn but she is devoted, No doubt about her love for her husband and her child..

While my memory still fresh now, i would like to note down what i have experienced in my dream.
What a nostalgic, i dream about my family, my father, my mother and our home.
In my dream i saw how our house gradually changed/evolved from a small to its current shape. I still remember, the first time when i moved in staying with my grandma and my cousin while my both parent and brother were staying at the other island, the house looked so old because the wall was not painted..
In my dream, my father took care of everything from building up the house.
When i think back, i was amazed by how everything was done..
It is like finding a lost memory in my dream..
In reality i might not have time to think of it, but in dream it flash back everything..
Come to think of it, without realizing it, perhaps it is the reason why everytime when i was back from singapore to batam, i would always rush back to my hometown..It is really a kind of feeling that i can not describe using word..My family is there waiting for me..
The house used to be lively because all my brother, cousin, grandma were all there..but now, only left my parents and my sister as the rest had moved out..my cousin married, my brother pursue their study at batam and my grandma stay with my grandpa..
The house is so empty now, all of sudden i have an urge to rush back, "pa, ma i'm back"...
Is this what we called homesick? well, perhaps...

All of sudden feel so lonely..
All of sudden need someone to accompany..
Don't feel like talking but prefer listening..
People keep telling me don't stress myself out..
but when i look at the thing that i haven't done, it really stress me out..

Last night almost didn't get any dinner because i was too into my work, i forgot the time..the canteen almost close. But luckily, there is some stall that are kind enough to sell me something..i'm grateful..
Didn't eat properly lately..
Sometimes, i am thinking, how good could it be if there is someone that can take good care of me..
To be honest, it is very tiring..

in the past two day, i was rushing doing my previous java logbook which i haven't done..so many code, testing, and record need to be done..
From morning 8 till midnight 1 for the past two day i was rushing my work because i know i have no enough time..
Finally it was done, but there are still more waiting for me:

1. Today must go for the Tuition grant appointment, still do not know how long will it takes..
2. By today need to complete literature review which consist of lots lots of thing to read..
3. haven't done my java assignment which consist of hellish code..
4. haven't prepared my 2 logbook for the incoming weeks
5. haven't done the tutorial which mean i lack of practice
6. haven't revise the math, economic and electronic which i don't understand at all..and the exam is drawing near==die...

Sigh...think no one will know this..
what can i do is to swallow all of this like drinking water all by myself..hope i won't get poisoned...:(
I spent most of my down time alone..
kind of person that like to bottle up my feeling...
May god bless me...

continuing doing my stuff...~~

i just read this joke from the link that my friend, huang-meimei, sent to me which i think quite funny, so real..i think i'm quite stressful lately..
Hence, it makes my day :) thx a lot..
Hope you guy and gal enjoy it..btw, it is in indonesia language..:)
Here we go:
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Kalo Cowok Ganteng pendiam
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Wow,cool banget..
Kalo Cowok Jelek pendiam
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Ih kuper..

Kalo Cowok Ganteng begaya gaul
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Funky bo..
Kalo Cowok Jelek begaya gaul
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Ih norak..

Kalo Cowok Ganteng jomblo
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Pasti dia perfeksionis
Kalo Cowok Jelek jomblo
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Sudah jelas..kagak laku!

Kalo Cowok Ganteng jadi gay
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Karena cowo2 juga suka
Kalo Cowok Jelek jadi gay
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Karna cewe2 uda ga berminat

Kalo Cowok Ganteng ganti2 cewe
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Wajar,khan dikerubutin cewe2 cantik
Kalo Cowok Jelek ganti2 cewe
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Pasti sering diputusin cewenya

Kalo Cowok Ganteng dpt cewe cantik
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Klop..serasi banget
Kalo Cowok Jelek dpt cewe cantik
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Pasti main dukun..atau cewenya matre

Kalo Cowok Ganteng ditolak cewe
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Jangan sedih,khan masi ada aku...
Kalo Cowok Jelek ditolak cewe
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: (Diam,tapi telunjuknya me liuk2 dari atas kebwh)

Kalo Cowok Ganteng diputusin cewe
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Rugi tuh cewe..tapi rejeki buat cewe yg lain
Kali Cowok Jelek diputusin cewe
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Akhirnya terbuka juga mata hati cewe itu...

Kalo Cowok Ganteng digaet Tante-tante Girang
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Pinter juga tuh tante
Kalo Cowok Jelek digaet Tante-tante Girang
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Pasti karena 'cucakrowo'nya..

Kalo Cowok Ganteng ngaku pacarnya Dian Sastro
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Percaya...masuk akal..
Kalo Cowok Jelek ngaku pacarnya Dian Sastro
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Tolong,beli kaca yang gede....!!

Kalo Cowok Ganteng suka merawat wajah
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Itu memelihara asset namanya..
Kalo Cowok Jelek suka merawat wajah
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Buang-buang waktu aja...

Kalo Cowok Ganteng ngaku Indo campuran
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Emang mirip-mirip bule sih..
Kalo Cowok Jelek ngaku Indo campuran
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Campuran bemo sama becak,kali..

Kalo Cowok Ganteng penyayang binatang
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Perasaannya halus...penuh cinta kasih
Kalo Cowok Jelek penyayang binatang
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Sesama keluarga emang hrs saling menyayangi...

Kalo Cowok Ganteng gak selesai study
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Jadi artis aja...
Kalo Cowok Jelek gak selesai study
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Mao jadi apa lo?

Kalo Cowok Ganteng jadi atasan
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Cocok..tampangnya aja intelek
Kalo Cowok Jelek jadi atasan
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Ga pantes,muka jongos...

Kalo Cowok Ganteng jago main gitar
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Most talented boy..
Kalo Cowok Jelek jago main gitar
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Pasti tukang ngamen..

Kalo Cowok Ganteng bawa BMW
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Matching...keren luar dalem
Kalo Cowok Jelek bawa BMW
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Punya majikan ya...

Kalo Cowok Ganteng main film
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Pasti peran utama..kaya Nicolas Saputra
Kalo Cowok Jelek main film
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Pasti peran penjahat atau setan difilm horor

Kalo Cowok Ganteng ngaku pernah ML
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Iyalah,cewenya pasti 'ngasih'...
Kalo Cowok Jelek ngaku pernah ML
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Sama WTS mana?

Kalo Cowok Ganteng tajir
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Sempurna..siapa si yg nggak mau?
Kalo Cowok Jelek tajir
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Kami hanya mau uangmu...

Kalo Cowok Ganteng jadi biker
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Kaya Valentino Rossi ya..
Kalo Cowok Jelek jadi biker
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Pasti sekalian ngojek..

Kalo Cowok Ganteng kulitnya gelap
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Si hitam Manis..
Kalo Cowok Jelek kulitnya gelap
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Si Dakochan....

Kalo Cowok Ganteng gondrong
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Macho..Rocker Style!
Kalo Cowok Jelek gondrong
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Buat nutupin muka..

Kalo Cowok Ganteng suaranya bagus
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Jadi penyanyi aja...
Kalo Cowok Jelek suaranya bagus
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Kenapa ga jadi kenek aja..??

Kalo Cowok Ganteng bodynya berotot
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Wiii gila,sixpack!...seksi bo!
Kalo Cowok Jelek bodynya berotot
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Biar orang ga mratiin tampangnya,tuh..

Kalo Cowok Ganteng males difoto
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Pasti takut fotonya kesebar-sebar
Kalo Cowok Jelek males difoto
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Nggak tega liat hasil cetakannya ya?..

Kalo Cowok Ganteng minjem duit
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Mungkin blm ngambil ATM...
Kalo Cowok Jelek minjem duit
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Dasar cekak! Singkron sama mukanya

Kalo Cowok Ganteng keringetan
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Pasti abis olahraga..sporty boo!
Kalo Cowok Jelek keringetan
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Abis ngangkut beras di mana?

Kalo Cowok Ganteng naik MOGE
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Ow..Lorenzo Lamas,bikin lemas..
Kalo Cowok Jelek naik MOGE
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Awas,mandragade lewat..

Kalo Cowok Ganteng jadi selebritis
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Kalo ngga model ya bintang film..
Kalo Cowok Jelek jadi selebritis
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Pasti pelawak atau penyanyi dangdut...

Kalo Cowok Ganteng menyendiri
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Gak mau jadi pusat perhatian
Kalo Cowok Jelek menyendiri
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Minder kali...

Kalo Cowok Ganteng humoris
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Orangnya asyik ya...
Kalo Cowok Jelek humoris
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Cari perhatian tuh..

Kalo Cowok Ganteng belagu
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Maklum beken...
Kalo Cowok Jelek belagu
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Muke lu jauh...!!

Kalo Cowok Ganteng romantis
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Ooh..so sweet..
Kalo Cowok Jelek romantis
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Urgh..you make me sick!

Kalo Cowok Ganteng pake kacamata item
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Kereen...jadi inget film Matrix
Kalo Cowok Jelek pake kacamata item
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Cocok..tinggal kasi tongkat aja..

Kalo Cowok Ganteng minta kissing
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Boleeh..tapi yg soft ya...
Kalo Cowok Jelek minta kissing
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Ih jijayy..sama pispot aja sana!

Kalo Cowok Ganteng berbuat jahat
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Nobody's perfect
Kalo Cowok Jelek berbuat jahat
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Pantes..tampangnya aja kriminil..!!

Kalo Cowok Ganteng nuangin air kegls cewe
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Ini baru cowo gentleman..
Kalo Cowok Jelek nuangin air kegls cewe..
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Naluri pembantu,emang gitu..

Kalo Cowok Ganteng nolongin cewe yg diganggu preman
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Wuih jantan..kaya difilm-film action
Kalo Cowok Jelek nolongin cewe yg diganggu preman
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Premannya pasti temen dia...

Kalo Cowok Ganteng bersedih hati
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Let me be your shoulder to cry on
Kalo Cowok Jelek bersedih hati
Cewek-Cewek Bilang: Cengeng amat!! Lelaki bukan sih..?!

Kalo Cowok Ganteng baca email ini
Langsung ngaca sambil senyum2 kecil,lalu berkata 'Life is Beautifull'
Kalo Cowok Jelek baca ini
Frustasi,ngambil tali jemuran,trus tereak se keras2nya
'HIDUP INI KEJAAAMM..!!!'
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Ckckckck hidup memang kejam ato cewenya yg kejam yah?hahaha :P

Sigh...do not know what i'm doing lately..
have determined to study hard yet still playing guitar..
can not be helped i think..
anyway my vocal still sucked..
difficult to sing and play at the same times...hope that someone could sing this song while i'm playing it :)

Sigh...i think this time round i really have to work hard..
i feel that i'm not working hard enough..
Therefore, i think i will "hibernate" for the time being before i get all my thing done..
If keep up with this kind of phase, i think i'm gonna get eliminated soon..
You may think that i'm just stressing myself out..
Yes, I'm..
I know myself better than anyone..
I'm not that smart, so in order to keep up with others i have to forgo certain thing in order to achieve something..
It is better to stress now than at later time..
May god bless me..

Pardon me if my voice spoil the entire song ><..
i'm still trying...:P

What am i afraid the most is not being rejected, what i'm afraid the most is that we can't get back to where we were before..The closer i get to you the more hesitate i'm..i have seen so many cases like this before..the price is too big to lose..
i'm such a blockhead when it comes to relationship..
i am still confused whether this is called love?because i never experience it before..
Or this is just misleading feeling since i only got few female friends..hence, when the strong feeling comes, i misunderstood it as a love instead of friendship..
this is really my concern..
I'm a kind of person who would like to make everything clear first before i take my action..Hence, sometimes i let the opportunity slip pass..
You may think i'm wishy washy, my answer is yes i'm..
she like to talk and ask a lot of question..
she keep asking who the person i love?why i haven't fall in love?
how could i answer it?when i'm in such confused state, this kind of question comes..i didn't plan to tell her because like what i told her, i really need to thoroughly understand my feeling first..i used to have that feeling, but it was gone for sometimes, but it is back again..but it is a bit different this time..i couldn't explain in details..i just feel it..
but eventually, through lots of questioning, i told her..
i think she was shocked..i think i have scared her..
then she said" what makes you think i will like you" i really dunno how to answer..
i just wanted to tell her something which i couldn't tell, which is i know i may not an ideal or good or ur dream guy, but at least let me protect and taking care of you for the time being until u met the right one..but this word will never come out of my mouth..
when she made everything clear, i feel relief and with no much sadness..perhaps, the friendship outweighed the so called "love" feeling i have towards her..
no matter what happend my instinct alway tell me, protect her..
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we went out again together with my other friends..something i'm afraid the most happened..it is not that so obvious but i could sense it, something different..it is no longer like what we were before..something amiss..in some ways, i feel that she keep avoiding me although she may not notice that herself..
for example, she become seldom talk to me but talk to the other, keeping distant with me for example she tend to walk beside my other friend when making conversation, tried to make group conversation when talking with me, didn't hit and bully me that often..i dunno whether she realised it or not..
there is an incident when she talk to us and my friend walk away where i'm standing beside her, then when she turn around while talking to us, when she realised that i'm the only one standing there,then she turned away and facing my friends, although it is just a brief moment, but i could sense it..
i believe she may not realised it herself..
kinda sad actually..perhaps, this is what i'm most afraid of..
I just wanted to let her know this, but i know she probably will say that i think too much or too sensitive..well, so i could only hope that it is just for a short period of time..
Well, i feel much better now to vent it out here...
i'm not good at expressing my feeling, my thought verbally but i hope i could express it better in written context..:)

Sigh...toooooo busy lately..lots of thing need to catch up..
Damn all of them, why so hard working and yet smart >.<..made me so stressful..
Feel damn stupid right now. Unlike my roomate, he seems so relax.
Still got time play dota. Well, i also slacking playing my guitar so i'm not much better than him. hahaha
But i think i really need to work hard this time..
I need motivation right now..
Anyway, i just recorded the moment when i fail my guitar >.<...sigh..
i didn't memorize the lyric and end up singing nonsense..hahaha
Couldn't play and sing loud also since there are people next door studying (i think so), so pardon me if could hear my voice lol...
next time i should train my guitar skill and my voice first hahaha..anyway it was my first try so don't go too hard on me :)

My body was in pain lately thank to the Aikido training. I should not blame it actually since i was the one that lack of exercise >.<..
Well, the basic training start from rolling. Guess what? i roll till i was dizzy :P
haha then we have been taught with few basic Aikido movement follow by few self-defence techniques. Actually, in my opinion, it is not really suitable in real combat since we have to have a cooperative partner/oppenent in order to execute the move nicely..
Having said that, i still like it because i really wanted to learn something new and on top of that Aikido is really beautiful :)

Here is one of the aikido video if you are interested..:D



Well, they are all master class -.-"

It is quite difficult to bond with my new indonesian's friends in NTU. Most of them are 5 year younger than me. Therefore, it is very difficult to find common topics. Most of them straight away joined NTU after their senior high school or which also better known as SMA in Indonesia. Sometimes, i was wondering how come i was so late compare to them. It seems like they have plan everything since the very beginning. Their path is so smooth unlike mine. I believe no one took longer road than i did..
They even got their scholarship to support their study while i still need to borrow money from the bank and my parents. Feel kinda jealous sometimes..
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Just now, i have been waiting for the shuttle bus on the way to my hostel for more than half an hour..Frankly speaking, i lost my temper just now, i feel like throwing my phone, but of course i won't be that stupid enough to throw..:)
When i reached the hostel, i feel really really tired but i don't feel like sleeping so early..
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Afterwards, i saw a shocking news from my webmail..My bursary application have been rejected...Come on, i don't have scholarship already and now you reject my bursary application..
I think i have a bad day today...
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I need someone to talk too sometimes...

Hi, I got few random quotes here. Hope you will like it.
Feel free to comment such as how much do you agree with this and which one do you like the most..

"The most beautiful things on earth cannot be seen - they can only be felt with heart"

"Pretty is temporal, but Beauty is eternal"

"Never be sad of what is over, just be glad it was once yours"

"you don't love her because she is beautiful, she is beautiful because you love her"

"the best kind of friend is the kind you can shit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had"

"as long as you have memories, yesterday remains; as long as we have hope, tomorrow awaits; as long as we have friendship, each day is never a waste"

"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind"

Finally, after 5 years of study in singapore, this is the first time i moved out and stay at the school's hostel. So many things need to bring and buy..
I think i have spent quite lots lately. Hope it is just for a short period of time. If it still goes on like this for the rest of the day, then i think i'm gonna broke soon..

The condition of the hostel is worse than i imagined. Well, perhaps the sleeping room is big enough but there is no dinning room. What behind our sleeping room's door is corridor. The toilet, pantry and laundry room is located at different places and levels, and it is shared with all the student from the same hall..

I would also like to thx a lot to my beloved friends for helping me carrying my stuff early in the morning all the way from my house to the hostel..I know she was sleepy because i could hear her yawning when receiving my morning call..hahaha
Sigh..i also felt bad that morning because it was probably my cause, more or less, that she lost the bus card..
Anyway thx a lot for the help Cin..I'm very grateful..

It is already 01:00 A.M, but i'm still wide awake..
Listening to music and chatting with friends at night is what i always do..
But soon, i know it will change as the new term is starting soon which mean busy and challenging life is waiting for me ahead which also means no more slacking time..
Therefore, i should really enjoy in this few days..:)
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Recently, i have bought a new phone after 5 years of using N-gage QD. I believe only few know N-gage QD since it is quite an old type phone..
Speaking of which, i'm still not really good at using the new phone, so many function are yet to be learnt..
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On the other hand, i just got my guitar too from my friend. Although the guitar's condition is not that well, but it is still playable.
I have not been playing guitar for quite a long time..
I'm so addicted to it..
Ooppss forgot to mention, i'm still at the stage of learning :D..
Hope that someday i can post a few guitar songs that i play on my own in my blog..

Recently, I have been reading few articles and i have come across this piece of wise wisdom which i think quite inspiring..Therefore, i would like to share, hoping that everyone will get inspired by this..
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French writer and Nobel Prize winner Anatole France once said, "To
accomplish great things, we must not only act, but also dream; not only
plan, but also believe."
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However, sometimes i'm also thinking will dreaming big always make your wishes come true? No, maybe not exactly, but I can pretty much guarantee you that you’ll get a lot closer than if you never dream at all or you squash thoughts of your dreams every time they surface..

Dreaming means u have desire, when you have desire then we will be motivated..Therefore, never be afraid to dream big..But, once again i question myself, how big is big?
Dream is something that can not be quantified..If it can be quantified, it's not a dream but an objective or goal. A dream has to be so big that you can't put a number or a date on it. That's what keeps it always in front of you, always in your future..

Thus, starting from today, we should start dreaming..Don't be shy to dream big..

It was not something horrifying..
It was something lovely instead..
I was dreaming confessing my love to a girl..
It was damn awkward dream i have ever had..
I still could feel the heart pounding even after i woke up from my dream..lol
I'm thinking, am i only that daring in dream?hahaha
I still remembered, the girl who i confessed in my dream was purposely asking me to repeat loudly what i told her in the public..then she walked away blushing without a response...
Anyway, it was just a dream..
Hope that in real life i won't get that kind of response..:D what a weird dream..

There is something that i would like to share here. I have read one of my friend's facebook wall's story today..It was a touching story which i would like to share:
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When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that every day for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife's divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside
the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.
My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push thru with the divorce.-- At least, in the eyes of our son--- I'm a loving husband....

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment that are conducive to happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.
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I hope you guys and gals enjoy this story..Feel free to share if you like :D

All of sudden, i wanted to tell the story of "the rich and the poor". Here it goes the story:
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Once upon a time, there was a rich man who owned a really big organization. He had everything he wanted except for his health. No matter how much money he spent to improve his health, he always ended up with unhealthy body.
On the other hand, there was once a poor man, no matter how hard he tried to work, he always ended up poor..He was always poor perhaps due to his carefree personality of never takes thing seriously, but he was blessed with healthy body..
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One day the rich and the poor met up and they both agreed to exchange their soul using certain method, so that they could lead the desire life that they wanted.
Finally, using the so called "certain method" they had successfully exchanged their soul. Now the rich become poor with a healthy body and the poor become rich who had everything except he had bad health condition..
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Time had passed, the rich who became poor started to succeed again in his career due to his good foundation and his hard work. And the poor who became rich now started to face financial crisis since he had no idea how to run a business and started to use up all his fortune to enjoy life..
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Once again, the rich become rich again but due to his over work his healthy body started to get weak and finally he had fallen ill again..
The poor who had spent all his fortune to enjoy life now become poor again but because of his carefree personality, he was getting healthier again..
In the end, nothing had changed because they're still holding the same attitude..
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The moral behind this story tell us that we should change our attitude first if we want to change our fate..

When i was on the bus on the way to my work place, a bunch of students with their teachers hopped on..To my surprise they were not normal students, but a group of students with intellectual disability..I could see that the teacher were busy organizing their student to settle down, but it only took few seconds to settle them down and they were all very obedient..
Unlike other children at their age, they were not jumping here and there nor making loud noise. They just sat quietly on their seat and look out of the bus window and smile with joy..it was the first time i saw such an innocent and happy expression on the bus because what i usually saw was hurry, serious and tense expression from most of the commuters..
They might be slow-witted, but they are definitely the most carefree and happiest creature in this world. God is really fair when creating human. When you lost something, you gain something.
Suddenly, i began to feel perhaps we should relax more like them so that we can really understand what does it mean by enjoying..if we have "everything-is-not-for-granted" attitude, then perhaps we would know how to enjoy life more..we should feel granted that we still can see the world, breathe the air, touch and feel the surrounding..

This is an another song from his latest album that i like..
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蝴蝶眨几次眼睛
Hu die zha ji chi yan jing
How many times does a butterfly blink
才学会飞行
Cai xue hui fei xing
Before it learns to fly?
夜空洒满了星星
Ye kong sai man le xing xing
The sky is sprinkled over with countless stars
但几颗会落地
Dan ji ke hui luo di
But how many there will remain?

我飞行 当你坠落之际
Wo fei xing Dang ni zui luo zhi ji
Even as I fly, you fall
很靠近 还听见呼吸
Hen kao jing Hai ting jian hu xi
So close I can hear you breathe
对不起 我却没捉紧你
Dui bu qi Wo que mei zhuo jin ni
So sorry I didn't keep hold of you

你不知道我为什么离开你
Ni bu zhi dao wo wei shen me li kai ni
You don't know why I had to leave you
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
Wo jian chi bu neng shuo fang ren ni ku qi
How could I ignore your every cry
你的泪滴想倾盆大雨 碎落满地
Ni de lei di xiang qing pen da yu Sui luo man di
All the while the downpour of your tears shattering the ground
在心里清晰
Zai xin li qing xi
So clearly pierced my heart
你不知道我为什么狠下心
Ni bu zhi dao wo wei shen me hen xia xin
You don't know why I had to keep away
盘旋在你看不见的高空里
Pan xuan zai ni kan bu jian de gao kong li
Circling in the sky above, just out of sight
多的是 你不知道的事
Duo de shi Ni bu zi dao de shi
So many are the things you never knew

蝴蝶眨几次眼睛
Hu die zha ji chi yan jing
How many times does a butterfly blink
才学会飞行
Cai xue hui fei xing
Before it learns to fly?
夜空洒满了星星
Ye kong sai man le xing xing
The sky is sprinkled over with countless stars
但几颗会落地
Dan ji ke hui luo di
But how many there will remain?

我飞行 当你坠落之际
Wo fei xing Dang ni zui luo zhi ji
Even as I fly, you fall
很靠近 还听见呼吸
Hen kao jing Hai ting jian hu xi
So close I can hear you breathe
对不起 我却没捉紧你
Dui bu qi Wo que mei zhuo jin ni
So sorry I didn't keep hold of you

你不知道我为什么离开你
Ni bu zhi dao wo wei shen me li kai ni
You don't know why I had to leave you
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
Wo jian chi bu neng shuo fang ren ni ku qi
How could I ignore your every cry
你的泪滴想倾盆大雨 碎落满地
Ni de lei di xiang qing pen da yu Sui luo man di
All the while the downpour of your tears shattering the ground
在心里清晰
Zai xin li qing xi
So clearly pierced my heart
你不知道我为什么狠下心
Ni bu zhi dao wo wei shen me hen xia xin
You don't know why I had to keep away
盘旋在你看不见的高空里
Pan xuan zai ni kan bu jian de gao kong li
Circling in the sky above, just out of sight
多的是 你不知道的事
Duo de shi Ni bu zi dao de shi
So many are the things you never knew

我飞行 当你坠落之际
Wo fei xing Dang ni zui luo zhi ji
Even as I fly, you fall
噢噢~
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你不知道我为什么离开你
Ni bu zhi dao wo wei shen me li kai ni
You don't know why I had to leave you
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
Wo jian chi bu neng shuo fang ren ni ku qi
How could I ignore your every cry
你的泪滴想倾盆大雨 碎落满地
Ni de lei di xiang qing pen da yu Sui luo man di
All the while the downpour of your tears shattering the ground
在心里清晰
Zai xin li qing xi
So clearly pierced my heart
你不知道我为什么狠下心
Ni bu zhi dao wo wei shen me hen xia xin
You don't know why I had to keep away
盘旋在你看不见的高空里
Pan xuan zai ni kan bu jian de gao kong li
Circling in the sky above, just out of sight
多的是 你不知道的事
Duo de shi Ni bu zi dao de shi
So many are the things you never

New songs added which i, personally, think quite good. The first time listening to this song and i already liked it, thank to chandra for sharing this song with me..
Hope everyone will like this song..
Here is the lyric with hanyu pinyin:
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小时候 你想要什麽
Xiao shi hou ni xiang yao shen me
When you are young, what did you want?
我要一臺大大蓝色的飞机
Wo yao yi tai da da lan se de fei ji
I wanted a really big blue airplane
带我环遊世界
Dai wo huan you shi jie
to take me around the world
到地球每一个角落
Dao di qiu mei yi ge jiao luo
to every corner of the globe
在蓝天白云中穿梭
Zai lan tian bai yun zhong chuan suo
traveling back and forth among the white cloud in the blue sky

而长大以後 我想要什麽
Er zhang da yi hou wo xiang yao shen me
And after i grew up, what did i want?
我要一臺小小红色答录机
Wo yao yi tai xiao xiao hong se da lu ji
I wanted a small red answering machine
和你一起录下
He ni yi qi lu xia
so i could record with you
喂 我们现在不在家
Wei wo men xian zai bu zai jia
"Hi!, We're not home at the moment.."
蓝色变成红色因 为你
Lan se bian cheng hong se yin wei ni
Blue became red because of you

柴米油盐酱醋茶
Cai mi you yan jiang chu cha
Firewood, rice, oil, salt, soy sauce, vinegar tea
一点一滴都是幸福在发芽
Yi dian yi di dou shi xing fu zai fa ya
Each and every drop is a bud of happiness growing
月儿弯弯爱的傻
Yue er wan wan ai de sha
A crescent moon, a foolish love
有了你什麽都 不差
You le ni shen me dou bu cha
i already have everything when i have you

小时候 你想要什麽
Xiao shi hou ni xiang yao shen me
When you are young, what did you want?
我要一臺大大蓝色的飞机
Wo yao yi tai da da lan se de fei ji
I wanted a really big blue airplane
带我环遊世界
Dai wo huan you shi jie
to take me around the world
到地球每一个角落
Dao di qiu mei yi ge jiao luo
to every corner of the globe
在蓝天白云中穿梭
Zai lan tian bai yun zhong chuan suo
traveling back and forth among the white cloud in the blue sky

哦长大以後 我想要什麽
O zhang da yi hou wo xiang yao shen me
oh, after i grew up, what did i want?
我要一臺小小红色答录机
Wo yao yi tai xiao xiao hong se da lu ji
I wanted a small red answering machine
和你一起录下
He ni yi qi lu xia
so i could record with you
喂 我们现在不在家
Wei wo men xian zai bu zai jia
"Hi!, We're not home at the moment.."
蓝色变成红色因 为你
Lan se bian cheng hong se yin wei ni
Blue became red because of you

柴米油盐酱醋茶
Cai mi you yan jiang chu cha
Firewood, rice, oil, salt, soy sauce, vinegar tea
一点一滴都是幸福在发芽
Yi dian yi di dou shi xing fu zai fa ya
Each and every drop is a bud of happiness growing
月儿弯弯爱的傻
Yue er wan wan ai de sha
A crescent moon, a foolish love
有了你什麽都 不差
You le ni shen me dou bu cha
i already have everything when i have you

给你快乐无论白天黑夜
Gei ni kuai le wu lun bai tian hei ye
Making you happy whether it's day or night
握紧双手就算刮风下雨
Wo jing shuang shou jiu suan gua feng xia yu
Grasping both your hands even in the wind and rain
我就是要你
Wo jiu shi yao ni
I only want you
要你待在我身边
Yao ni dai zai wo shen bian
Want you to stay by my side
保护你直到永远
Bao hu ni zhi dao yong yuan
Protecting you untill the end of the time

柴米油盐酱醋茶
Cai mi you yan jiang chu cha
Firewood, rice, oil, salt, soy sauce, vinegar tea
一点一滴都是幸福在发芽
Yi dian yi di dou shi xing fu zai fa ya
Each and every drop is a bud of happiness growing
月儿弯弯爱的傻
Yue er wan wan ai de sha
A crescent moon, a foolish love
有了你什麽都 不差
You le ni shen me dou bu cha
i already have everything when i have you

月儿弯弯爱的傻
Yue er wan wan ai de sha
A crescent moon, a foolish love
没有一个理由
Mei you yi ge li you
there's no reason
活的那麽复杂
Huo de na me fu za
to live a complicated life
有了你什麽都 不差
You le ni shen me dou bu cha
i already have everything when i have you

How does rusting feel like?I think it is more or less like my current self..
Have not been doing anything useful for this past few months besides relaxing..
I think it is about time to do something useful instead of wasting time..
The school is starting in another 3 more weeks yet i haven't prepared anything..
I think i am too relaxing lately..
I'm starting to forget how the school life feels like..Worried that i couldn't cope with the university's life..
I know it is gonna be a tough road, but i must have faith in myself. I have already made it this far, so i don't have the reason to back off. This time i'll definitely be able to survive as well. Besides i'm not alone, i still have my buddy with me. We are aiming for second upper class honor but if possible we also wanted the first class honor..Anyway, i think i just do my very best. I'm already late compare to my other friends who already graduated from university. Hence, i think i should do well..
I need to be very very focus this time because lots of people said university is totally in different level than poly..><
I'M A BIT SCARED to be honest...

Recently, i just realized that i probably have two personality..
It changes drastically..
I ,myself, don't really like my second personality because it may offend other people..
When i'm in my second personality, i become very quiet, serious, ignorance and cold..i talk less and prefer straight to the point..
Usually i become like this when i am tired or when i am serious doing things..
So please, bear with and forgive me if i become this way..
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I believe people do have more than one personality..
If you think that i have more than these personality, then please feel free to comment..
Good nite..

Music affect people's mood..
What happened to me?
Seems like i'm missing something..
I couldnl't tell what that is...
I think i should listen to more cheerful song..
Damn it...
Listening to emo song while blogging will make the content of my blog look emo..
I'm enjoying listening to music while lying on my bed..
After a day work..lying down on bed listening to music is such an enjoyable thing to do..
Seems like i found something that i have lost..but it doesn't seem exactly the same..i really couldn't pinpoint what is happening..
This kind of feeling really makes me sick..
I think i should just leave it to nature; let things take their own course
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I'm confused now..i don't even know what i'm blogging...
Judging from the way i'm writing now, i think you should already aware..
There are lots of thing inside my head..Sorry if you get confused too when reading this post..
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Perhaps this is the side effect of starving and sleepless...
i think i should turn in soon before my mind run wild..hahaha

Working again today, i mean later on this morning..
I have been spending quite lots lately..i think it is about time to earn back what i have been spending..Work hard, play hard, spend hard then it is called life...:)
Good nite all...

This movie suck...
Be honest, it is not worth watching even in 3D..
The story line is boring, the action/fighting scene is lame, and the 3D effect is nothing..
Quite dissapointed actually..
Besides, i could not concentrate during the show because she, who sat beside me, could not keep still while wacthing..she kept imitating the charater move in the movie by wavering her hands like praticing Tai chi..I didn't know what she was doing ..
To me, it looked like she was provoking me, trying to tell me that why i brought her to watch this lame movie..hahaha
I was the victim as well...agrhhhhh....

It was still pretty dark because it was only 5:30 a.m. I was on my way to batam from my hometown by boat..
It was damn cold that morning..
As you can see, the moon was pretty bright...If you could see it with your own eyes, it would be much more beautiful...


Now, it was around 6:00 am..as you can see the sky was starting to turn bright...


15 minutes had passed and it was already 6:15 a.m now..


The morning sky is indeed beautiful..Although i couldn't see the sunrise directly as it was blocked by the hills, but the reddish sky was pretty...
Morning sea breeze is the best..

Ehm....i know i have not been updating my blog for some time but it doesn't mean i abandon my blog...
I was very very busy lately although i don't know what exactly i was busy for..:D
Perhaps most of the time i spent for reading manga...
I am a big fan of Naruto, One piece, and Bleach manga..
Recently i started to read a new manga, History Strongest Disciple Kenichi..
The manga was pretty awsome..
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Actually, there are plenty of things happened since my last post..it is just that i don't feel like updating..Therefore, i think i will just post a few posts at once..hehehe

Inception was the movie that chan, christ, cin and i were watching last night...
I kinda like the story line..It is very difference compare to the other movies..
The ideas are very smart and fresh..i think it was worth watching..
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I wish i could do the same thing like those people in the inception movie, manipulating somebody's dream so that i can mess up with someone's dream..:D
It doesn't always mean bad for them because i know some people may dream of something or someone that they don't really want to dream about...
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To be honest, there was a time that i really long to beat one person so that he will never ever appear again in her dream..
hahaha silly thought perhaps coz it will never ever happen..:)
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Who am I loving? Loving until I'm so immersed
Tell me who you are. You're able to take me, and make me not myself
You won't get tired. But, in contrast, I'm loving you until I'm exhausted.
I've never disregarded comfort and given my all to someone
Standing at this balanced point, I still feel like there's danger
Maybe it can't be seen, one can only rely on feeling
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He won't be a good man. He also won't be a good lover.
You said to me we were just passing each other
There are so many good men, days without him are still livable
I won't make you lonely again, I also won't make you even sadder
Listen to me, you need to live well from now on
No matter how many wrongs there are in the future
There will at least be my regards
My gentleness will be with you to get through the hard times
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Listen to me, don't do this
Don't look at me and say you already know what to do
You're going through a hard time, I'm willing to be with you and take the pain with you
As long as you're not afraid of pain, no matter how bumpy the road is, I'll go down it with you

To be honest, you are so hard to please and understand..
Sometimes i really don't understand what you are thinking..
Mood swing whenever you like..
The worst part, you just keep mum..
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Perhaps, it is because i seldom have enough time to accompany you..
Being a good brother isn't easy..
Being an understanding brother even more difficult..
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sigh..

What a nostalgic conversation i have had with Rob..
It brings back memory of our high school time..
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It has been a long time since i had a nice chat with him..
We talked about basket ball, school, work etc..
We even talked about IREX..OMG hahaha
It is used to be a joke that they used to tease me..
If i'm not mistaken, i think it should be 6 years ago back then when i was still a high school student..
I remembered it all started when i kept shaking my legs when sitting during the class time..
That time, Ren was the one who sat besides me..
Irritated by my behaviour, she shouted out loud " mai yo la " (don't shake in english) hahahahha..
I was damn embrassed at that moment..haha
then Khen started teasing me by saying "mai yo la" then he also added some stupid stuff saying that i was main IREX distributor..lol
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Nice chat bro..^^

Where is everyone??
Don't know why everyone slept so early tonight..
I just couldn't close my eyes..
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Damn it, it is damn unusual quiet tonight..
What is going on??
Sigh..
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I think i just continue watching my drama...
Recently, on channel 8, there is a recast drama called Yi Tian Tu Long ji 2003..
Thanks to it, i was addicted to this drama again..

Waseh...I think i better keep my mouth shut next time...
Accidentally upsetted one friend of mine...
Now, i become totally insensitive...zzzz

What do you think?
Can guys cry out loud?

I think i have been in batam for a week thank to the stupid submit button that i pressed..lol
It was worth the trip..I have lots of fun there..
Singing almost all the times with my brothers and my friends..
We PK one song for 5 times..It was totally crazy that time..
But it was not a fair PK..
When it was my turn, they kept changing the song tempo and key when i was singing..
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By the way, the song that we PK called "Xing Bu Liao Qing"
haha

Recently, i was very lazy to update my blog so i updated the songs instead..
I have been listening to lots of songs recently...Sad songs, Happy songs, English songs and etc2..
Finally i come out with these songs..
:)

Well, i cannot deny that i'm quite a sensitive guy..haha
or i'm a very very sensitive guy?
it doesn't matter actually because some people did say i'm quite ignorance... :)
so which one is the real me?
Depend on the situation, i can be very sensitive or i can be very ignorance as well..haha
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That's ME...

Almost lost my important chat-mate..Sometimes, things better don't leave unspoken or we will regret it..
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Sometimes being nice doesn't always bring good outcome..you may think it is good to one, but it may not always be the other way round..
Always remember the consequences of being nice..the intention may start from the good point but sometimes people may just get misunderstood..
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I always believe communication is the effective tool to counter this problem..
when we smell something amiss, we better find it out before it is too late..
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I always believe every problems always have its solution..
There are almost no problems that can not be solved..
Cheers....

Telling you, Hiding from you, are just different decisions
Giving you up, Forgetting you, will only frightened me not to move forward
I don't know why I am so worried about you out of nothing
The more I understand you, the closer I get to you, the more I hesitate.
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I know that I love you, but I don't have the courage to tell you
I am afraid of losing you, so I rather not say anything
How do I settle this, happiness that is in my hands.
I hate myself, for being so helpless
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I know that I love you, but I don't have the courage to get close to you
I act like I don't mind about it, but it actually hurts me
I can tolerate any pain, just that I can't bring myself not wanting you
I only hope to love you forever
It does not matter if you know it or not

Mainframe Computing Top Student Award..


It's my first time getting top student award..
Finally all the efforts i have put in have paid off..

I just recevied a sad news this morning..
Life seems so fragile..
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Why do we have to suffer from the separation of our beloved one?
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May God give strength to those who have been left behind..

When i arrived at hospital, my mum was already there..
She looked pale, but still awake and able to have a short chat with me..
Next day, early in the morning, she went through surgery while i was on my way to hospital..
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When i reached there, all i could see was everyone's sad face..
"what's going on" i wondered..
They said my mum suffered from lots of blood loss and the surgery didn't go smoothly as expected..
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I was stunned after hearing the news..
I didn't know how to respond..
But one thing for sure was i knew i must kept myself calm..
I could see that my dad and my two younger brothers were very worried and depressed..
It was the first time i saw my dad shed a tear..
It was the first time we had faced this kind of situation..
As an eldest son and brother, i need to keep my calm..
I need to comfort them although deep in my heart was crying..
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There was so many times i almost cry out when comforting them..
but i know, i can not, especially to my dad..
So i didn't even shed a single tear that day..
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When my mum out of the operation room, i could see that she was lying there helplessly..
My heart shattered into pieces..
When sitting beside her, i could hear her weak breath..
When touching her hands, it feel so rough..It is a pair of hands that she used to support the family..
When touching her hair, it look so white..She has aged so much..
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I told mum, no need to worry..everthing will be fine..
My heart was crying when i saw mum like that..But i do not want her to see that as i do not want her to worry..
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What an unforgetable experience..

I'm back again after some unpleasant time that i have gone through..
Seems like my last post have worried few friends of mine..
Sorry to all of my friends for making u guys and gals worried and thank a lot for all the prayer that you all prayed..seems like god had heard your prayer..
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Today, i just went to the hospital with my mum for her body check-up..
The doctor told me that she was doing well, nothing serious about my mum condition..
He asked me why should my mum went through operation in Batam?How should i respond to his question?I just wanted to tell him that the Batam's doctor really sucked..
I cursed them for recklessly performed surgery on my mum..
I cursed them even more if the surgery was purposely done just to make money out of my mum..
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I, eversince, lost faith in Batam's doctor..
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However, eventhough i said nothing serious had happend to my mum, but it doesn't mean it is not serious..We still need to come back here for check up next month..If the condition doesn't improve, in worse case scenario my mum still need to undergo surgery..
Hope that my mum doesn't need to take that path..
I'm enough with surgery already..
No more cut here and there..
No more mum lying on the patient bed helplessly again..
I can't bear to see that again..
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My little sister is doing well as well..
She had been diagnosed with dengue fever back then..But seems like everything is turning well..All the bad thing has already passed..
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God is still on my side..:)

All of sudden, i feel so tired..
Why so many thing happend in such a short time..
One after another or more precisely one and another..
One haven't gone yet, the other already appear..
At first was my mum and now my little sister..
Come on, give me a breath..
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I feel so stress now seeing both my mum and little sister like this..
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Last night, i got SMSes from my little brother saying that our mother was on her way to hospital. That time, i was still in my working place. I was like, what's going on?
I have a surge of feeling of rushing back home..
But luckily nothing happend..
Thanks to my brother for keep updating me about our mum condition..
My mum has suffered from high blood pressure.
I believe she overdid her works or forgot to take her medicine..
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My parents are already in their late 50's and yet still have to work so hard to support the family..
I feel very bad all of sudden..
I'm not on their side most of the time,
Haven't earned a living to support family yet,
And i still have another 4 years to go before i really start to work..
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what should i do?
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I'm thinking of going back home this afternoon..
I'm still waiting for the further updates from my brother..
Hope that nothing serious happend to mum..
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This was the movie that i watched last night..
This movie managed to make me shed a tear..
It is quite a good movie in my opinion because it show the loyalty that perhaps human cannot achieve..
Can you wait for someone that has already gone for nine years? Maybe yes, maybe no..
Most people can only wait for at the most three to four years..
But this dog, Hachi, could wait for nine years or rather i should say its whole life..incredible right? That is why the dog become a legend in Shibuya Railroad Station..
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Perhaps, the reason why human's loyalty can not last so long is because when our important one's gone, we tend to make a new bond..
Not to forget that we also have family and lots of friends that can support us. Hence, we tend to get heal quickly..
However,for a dog like hachi. Perhaps, its only friend is his master. Therefore, it can only wait for its master and no one else..
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Last time i also got watched one movie title "10 promises to my dog" which i think quite similar to Hachiko..
For those who interested especially those animals' lover, you could try this movie..^^

I'm still wide awake now..
Couldn't sleep..
What should i do?
I think i just keep my eyes shut..
Hopefully i could just fall asleep like that..
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Anyone got any better ideas?
Mind to share with me?
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By the way, time past so fast..
Perhaps, this is the reason why i don't like sleeping..
When i shut my eyes and open it, it is already the next day..
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Without realizing it, i have already been in singapore for more than 4 years..
Some of my friends are still studying just like me,
some are getting married,
some are married,
some even have child already,
some are no longer in this world,
but most of them are working,
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During this 4 years a lot of thing happend..
We are no longer ourselves anymore like last time..
We have changed even though sometimes we don't even realize it ourselves..Anyone agree with me?
I believe most of us should already knew what we really wanted to achieve in our life now..
Perhaps, this is what we called life..
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We should always move forwards no matter how many obstacles that we have faced..
Although it is easier to said than done but i believe as long as we have the KEY(still remember my KEY?), we definitely could pull through.
SO, what is the thing that you are going to achieve in your life?
Mind to share with me?
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So dissapointed..why all the song's text was written in chinese with no Hanyu Pinyin..Zzz
The choice of english songs were also limited and some didn't even have text..
The indonesia songs also sucked..One singer only have one song..
What kind of KTV is this??
Well, i should not complain much. It was free after all..haha
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However that was not the most irritating part..
My friend's friend's friends came join us.
We only selected few songs since we considered others might want to sing as well..
However, these new bunch of people when it comes to their turn, they selected the whole album song, S.H.E, F.I.R, JJ and etc...
I was like -.-"
The way they sang was also damn weird..they never switched off the audio-vocal, i means they sang along with the singer voice..Where was the fun part if we couldn't hear your voice..come on la you people..
Perhaps this is their culture..My friends and i were like "ass hole" hahaha
We, Arifin, Rendy, Darwin and i, end up playing pool..haha
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Someone have found my blog..
Wah...damn paishe

More and more people are getting to know my blog now..
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First of all, Congratulation to those who found my blog --> Cindy
How did you manage to get my blog? >.<
Ehm...this is a new blog that i just created few days ago and not much people know and yet you found me already...>.<
luckily i never badmouthed you..:P hahaha
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I think i enabled the comment already..You guys and gals may try to comment to see if it is work..

I was like walking vampire today...
so tired and so sleepy..couldn't sleep well last night and the next day because we kept disturbing one another..:P
I'm so full now..Thanks a lot to Fin and Ren for the treat..The steamboat was great..:P
Ok, let's call it a day..
I'm going to sleep to my heart content tonight..hehe
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Bye, i'm turning in soon..
Zzz.zZz..zZ

Last night, despite being so tired after a long day walk, i managed to have a short chat with few friends of mine.
Haha glad that they are doing well..
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Glad to know she is getting well too now. Although it was just a few minute of chatting, but i could sense that she was no longer emo..
Like what you said, those who live in the past is a loser. But those who think back of the past is not. Travel back in time is fine, just make sure we didn't trap ourselves back there.
i'm looking foward to seeing a cheerful girl like back then. :)
Hope that you don't get too upset anymore over the past matter. let bygones be bygones..
cheers...Jia you..

After a long walk a day with my cousin and his girlfriend yesterday, we finally went home. What a tiring day. Now i know tour guide is not an easy job. Zzzz
I don't want to be a tour guide again today..
My last move is SIAM (run away in hokkien) hahaha
I make use of arifin and rendy as an excuses to be absent on today free tour guide duty..wahaha
So at the last minute last night , i went out to my friend's place... :D
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Over here i got wijaya, arifin and rendy with me..
Last night we, except for rendy, went out for supper.
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Damn it, it was heavy rain last night..we had been trapped at the kopitiam..Zzz
What else can be done by the three of us in this heavy rain at the kopitiam..
TALKING CRAP is our speciality..:D ahahaha
We end up reaching home around 3 o'clock.
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It was a great chat with you. I have a strange feeling when chatting with you as if we have known each other for quite a long time.
I was like chatting with an old friend of mine. :)
It feel so warm..
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Have you guys and gals ever experienced it before?
Perhaps, this is what we called chat mate.. :)
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Ok let's call it a day.
I should turn in soon as well..
Good nite everyone...

Time passes so fast. In a blink of an eye, it is already 5 year since i graduated from my High school, SMA Yos Sudarso.
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So many memories left over there. I was chatting with Jurina just now and all of sudden she remind me of our high school life. Where should i start first?
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ok perhaps, i should start with something i'm most familiar with.
BLITZ---my basket ball team name..
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if i'm not mistaken, in our basket ball team history, we never win even a single match. What a failure..
Since i did mention about jurina, she used to be our team's money collector (lol am i using the correct term? whatever)
in our team, we got 2 money collector, jurina and cindy.
The reason why we chosed girls as money collector was because we didn't trust our guys..lol haha
these two girls also got play basket ball with us.
i still remembered one funny incident. One day, there was 5 on 5 match and jurina were one of the basket ball players in her team. When she got the ball, she charged fiercely to her field without thinking(not her opponent field) and shot to her field's goal and GOAL. I was like, NICE one..hahaha
that was so funny, all the spectators were stunned.
sorry jurina don't bear a grudge against me, i just couldn't help myself :P
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After a few year struglling maintaining the team, the team finally dispersed and we formed another new team called LG.
LG was not a basket ball team. It was a team that we formed at the last minute before our high school graduation to remember our friendship.

What a shocking news,
"A 45-YEAR-OLD man died of a heart attack after being bombarded with 120 SMSes from a debt collection company over RM7,000 (S$3022) in credit card debts"

First time reading this kind of news..haha
Just keep spamming the sms..lol
flooding their inbox..
and they end up getting the corpse..zzzz

Breaking news, "SMS DO KILL PEOPLE"

This was the movie that i watched with my dad and younger brother three days ago, Ice kacang Puppy love.
Actually my father didn't want to watch this movie because there is no action scene in it. My father always prefer action movie or horror movie but never love or romantic movie.
However, the only action movie left were Ip man 2, iron man 2 and the bounty hunter. The rest was romance such as the back up plan.
Come on, my father don't understand english. So we only left with Ip man 2 and ice kacang puppy love.
My brother told me, we can watch Ip man 2 in Batam but not ice kacang puppy love. So, we chose ICE KACANG eventually!hahaha
i feel very bad for my dad..haha but i'm sure he will like the show.
guess what? He lOVE the movie because it bring back lots of memory since it is similar to my kampoeng life..haha and it is very funny, touching and so real..
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One hour before the show start, we walked around the ILUMA mall. We bought one bag of soft sweet to the cinema and we finished it just before the show start. haha
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These few days, i have been reading one of my buddy blog..
So many thing had happend to her.
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I could feel her sadness and helplessness, but what could i do. I'm not good at comforting people. All i can do is to chat and bully her or to let her bully me like back then, hoping that it could ease her pain.
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She changed a lot, personality and physical. She used to be so warm-hearted but now become a bit cold. She used to be so cheerful but now i could sense that there is something amiss about her. I couldn't pinpoint what is that. In a words, people do change a lot as time passes.
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People told me she was getting very thin when she broke up with her boyfriend. But when i asked her, she told me that she was fine and she was getting fat again. I used to tease her because she was quite plump back then. However, when i met her, I was heartbroken. Was she kidding me saying that she was getting fat? she was thin. i couldn't imagine what she looked like when people said she was thin.
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She is quite special to me because i seldom have female buddy.
I always wanted to protect her like a big brother who always wanted to protect his younger sister. i know you might find that i'm a bit silly, but i just follow my instinct.
I hope that she can walk out of her past shadow soon. I believe time will heal everything.
cheer up and jia you...

I believe everyone has their story to tell. So do i.
My story might not be as exciting as your story but it is still a story.
Here i go.
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First of all, My full name is Herman Tino. And i do believe every name that was given by their parent do have a meaning so i do ask my parents.

I asked my father, "Pa what is the meaning of my name?"
My father told me, "actually i also don't know what is the meaning of your name?"
I replied, "how come?then why u gave me this name?"
My father replied, "i got your name from one of my worker. He said Herman Tino is a good name because it is a name of one famous singer from malaysia."
I replied in amazed, "so, you just took his suggestion."
With a smile on his face, my father replied, " YA "
I was like, OMG...so this is how my name come from..zzz

Because of this name, i become quite famous during my study in singapore..i still remember one incident when i went to singapore imigration to surrender my student pass. I was supposed to collect my document on that day, but i came back on the next day instead. When collecting my document, the officer said she was wondering where Herman Tino have gone to. She thought i was so busy with my concert. lol..
SEE!!they made fun of my name!
So...what is the meaning of your name?Have you ever tried to find out?
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Second of all, I'm originally from Moro island or more precisely from moro Subdistrict. As you know indonesia is so big, so most of the place is divided into Province, District and Subdistrict (confused?don worry because i'm not sure either :P)

Since i was a kid, i often moved from 1 island to another island.
When i was primary 4, i moved to my grandma place (another island) to continue my study since my previous school closed down. Afterwards, i moved to Batam to further my secondary and high school and now Singapore. Quite an adventurous experience, wasn't it?
Some of you may wondering whether i miss my family. Of course i do. Can you imagine a primary 4 student staying apart from their parents?
But now, no more this kind of feeling. I get used to it already.
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last time after graduating from my high school, i have dilemma whether to further my study overseas or not. I had received a lot of comment from my relative regarding my study. They felt that it was not worth trying because my high school grade was not really desireable. Furthermore, financial condition of my parent may not really support me. there were lots of risk involved
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I would really like to thank my parents to have their faith in me. Hence, i promised myself to study as hard as i could (altough i did slacked sometimes :P).
when i think back, i indeed have gone through a lot of steps to reach where i'm standing now. Life never go easy on us, preseverance is the key to survive (originally quoted from Hema :P)
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Another new problem keep dwelling on me now..can i do well in university?what if i cannot?there is so many thing i worried about..all i can do now is to believe in myself..if you want people to believe in you, you need to believe in yourself first!!>.< it is easier to say than done..
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ok, that's all for today..I will update the post again...

Since in my last post i did mention about my graduation ceremony. Here, i would like to share with you few photos of my graduation day.












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From left to right, my younger brother (pandi), me, and my DAD(do we look alike?)
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By the way these two fellows here are my INDON friend in RP.
From left to right,Rendy(the muscle man), me (the handsome man :)), Arifin (the Fat man) wahaha...
both of them graduated 1 year earlier than me...Shit, it was all because i never study well last time during my high school. Hence, i ended up falling behind them for 1 year.

I had never walk so long before. I think this was the first time i walked more than 6 hours continuosly everyday for the last three days.
However, it was a fun journey..I accompanied my father as he had never been in singapore for more than 30 years. Unbelievable, isn't it?
He told me the last time he went to singapore was when he worked as a sailor. I didn't know that till this last few days. He never mentioned about that before.
Speaking of which, do you know why my father come here?
Is it because of merely a holiday?
It is all because of my graduation ceremony. I would like to make him proud as he didn't make the wrong choice last time sending me here to study.
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.all of sudden, there are so many stories that appear in my head that i would like to share. >.<
i'm sorry if my blog look messy because i just dumped anything that i could think of.


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Lake of Dream
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On the way to Casino...
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Universal studios..we didn't go inside to play the game.
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inside the Tiger tower, viewing Sentosa scenery..
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there are so many photo that we took. These are only few that have been selected..I have all these photo in my Facebook.